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madame morrible has the worst fucking luck ever and I CAN'T because first of all after decades and decades of waiting she finally gets her most promising student yet right; she finally gets someone who actually has magic and who might actually be able to read the grimmerie and help further her and the wizard's plans and COINCIDENTALLY this student (bless her heart) is shunned and ostracized by literally EVERYONE including her own family and is desperately craving some form of parental love and affection and validation and acceptance and so madame morrible is like 'ooh this is fucking PERFECT this girl is going to be SO easy to manipulate into doing what I want what could possibly go wrong wow.'
and in comes the fucking pink lesbian.
because elphaba is shunned and hated and all of her peers avoid and detest her because she's weird and green BUT then all of a sudden?? out of nowhere??? she and her pink roommate who, mind you, had a choreographed song and dance routine which involved the entire student body in which they detailed how much they really really hate each other, got really fucking close??? now they go everywhere and do everything together??? they are attached at the hip and looking longingly into each other's eyes WHAT IS HAPPENING????
you are madame morrible and you think galinda upland is in love with your student and what is worse is that your student might be in love with galinda upland and that fucking SUCKS because how the fuck are you supposed to properly emotionally manipulate her now. and it makes absolutely zero sense to you because WHY is galinda upland, the most popular girl at shiz taking an interest in your student??? WHY IS SHE HERE, WHY IS THE FRUITY BITCH RUINING YOUR PLANS???
glinda's very EXISTENCE is a thorn in your side; her simply being herself and interacting with elphaba is probably the reason why you feel a headache coming every time you see them together and is perhaps the reason why you scream into your pillow at night because this absolute loser lesbian just being there might upend a huge fucking chunk of what you've been planning for years.
and then the fucking cherry on top of all of this your student decides to play vigilante and flies off into the sunset and then that leaves you stuck WITH her situationship who you hate more than anyone in the world and you're forced to sort of team up with her for a bit except she doesn't really know magic and she's just being sad and gay and moping about missing her girlfriend and you're sitting there FUMING thinking about how all these fucking witches are fruitier than fuck and all of them are useless to you at this point.
like this is just madame morrible at shiz after elphaba asks her to include glinda in their study sessions just realizing 'dear god I am going to be ping-ponging between these lesbians for the rest of my fucking life aren't I.'
ik she needed elphaba for the plot and for her dastardly plans but in all honesty if I was her and elphaba came up to me at 1am and was like yes please I need you to include my roommate with whom I have a homoerotic relationship in our study sessions or else I will quit right now. also, you have to go down to our party this very instant and tell her in person yourself bye and thanks, I would've just handed in my resignation letter right then and there and cut my losses.
#wicked#wicked 2024#wicked movie#this is for the movie specifically but i just love the madame morrible-glinda dynamic#like the initial one sided beef they have is SO fucking funny#because glinda's like “wow i admire and respect you!! i want to be like you!!”#and morrible's like “if you fucking touch me i will actually set you on fire”#but she HAS to tolerate glinda for elphaba's sake#like she CAN'T#she's stuck with this girl#she can't escape her#even when elphaba leaves GLINDA'S STILL HERE#AND SHE'S NOW STUCK WITH GLINDA#SHE PUT UP WITH THIS NONSENSE FOR ELPHABA#AND ELPHABA'S FUCKING GONE AND LEFT HER WITH THIS THING#AND NOW HERE SHE IS#it's so FUNNY i can't#especially because by the end glinda's also like oh you thought i made your life hell before think again ugly bitch try me#love that for her i won't lie#glinda upland#galinda upland#elphaba thropp#gelphie#gelphie: ruining lives since their shiz days#good on them yk
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Are you attracted to another person on snzblr (it’s obvious)🙄
so I normally delete attention seeking anon asks like this but uh. this is the third time i've gotten one like this, in the past, idk, week? so I'm guessing you're the same person so hey!!! let's talk about it
firstly, you uh? couldn't say this to my face? off anon? why not? if it's so desperately important to you to know who I may or may not be attracted to, something tooooootally your business in the first place, why not ask it face to face? mayyyyyybe because you know it's a shitty thing to ask, and don't want people to know it's you? hm. just something to think on <3
secondly!!! actually yeah, I'm attracted to a fair number of people on snzblr, that's. kinda a big part of what this space is used for. sharing things that are attractive to us with this kink and being attracted to them. isn't that just wild??? this community is really amazing that way, and I'm so happy and honoured to be a part of it. but, in the words of your previous asks, 'in love with', haha, no. and even if I was? that would be my business, maaaaaaybe something I'd share with them if we were both single/available and close in that way, buuuut that would still be my choice, and not something you would get to know about, especially hiding behind the anon <3
and thirdly!~ fuck off my blog please!~ <3 i answered this one because I'm getting a bit sick of this shit, and think you deserve to see that you are deeply unwelcome here talking like that!~ maybe if you fix up your attitude, try being polite, and stop hiding behind anon, we could have an actual conversation!~ but otherwise? go away <3 there's no room for you here, and I will not be answering any further drama seeking messages on this blog <3
consider that an official stance, I don't answer obviously drama seeking shit, so send it if you really feel so deeply that you have to, but know it's getting deleted and laughed at between my close friends <33
#waterfallasks#also the emoji??? babe you so clearly want attention <3 so here!!! this is all you're gonna get from me#go take this shitty behaviour elsewhere~ it won't be tolerated around here <3#ive been in a lot of friend groups and dealt with a lot of drama in my life#so if you're trying to rattle me? phase me? babe you aint got shit on what i've been through <3#you are just some words on a screen and you mean nothing.#again! if you want an actual conversation- try dropping the attitude and get off anon#otherwise!! leave me alone babe <3 i'll continue deleting your asks and laughing at you for sending them#i don't want none of this and i'm only answering this one to make my official stance clear#drama seeking asks are to be deleted and ignored here thanks!~ <3#also might delete this later bc again!! drama seeking? on my blog? no thank you <3#but! i'll leave it up for at least a night and maybe a day so that hopefully you can see it#and know that you are not welcome here~ and will be ignored if you continue~#not snz
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Anyone involved in or supporting the far-right riots currently going on in this country are not welcome on this blog. I think it's disgusting and I'm not going to argue with you because you're wrong.
On another note, I'm glad to see the people turning up to help clean up and counter the violence. It never should have happened in the first place, the fact it is ongoing is absolutely disgraceful, but it's relieving to see that not everyone in the local area is so willing to be taken in by far-right thugs.
Stay safe everyone <3
#I know I don't usually post this but the last couple of weeks have been a lot#there's been a few more local riots and threats of one in my local town so#I just want to make it clear that it won't be tolerated here#uk politics#england#not disability related#tw violence mention
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Prefacing that, again time zones, I've only been able to glean the latest CR episode and that I do not agree with their in-character opinions on the gods, I'd like to remind fans to try and not get super ugly about their criticism of Ashton Greymoore.
I'll be the first to throw my hands up and say they're among my favourite C3 characters so there may be bias, but I've been getting flashes of the Shard Incident from reactions towards their recent and vocal disdain for the gods. Disagree with them all you want, Taliesin knows that the gods can't simply leave since they're the one who said that the Wildmother would die if she left, but understand that it's a character flaw and if you recall the hardships of their backstory, the unanswered prayers, and that their only exchanges with the gods have required them to do something or, with the Dawnfather Angel, have been met with cold disregard, it's understandable how they got to feeling that way. Ashton has lived alone and been told they don't matter for a lot of their life; no gods, no family, no nurturing presence to guide them, they've been abandoned, used, and - with additional influence by the Dominox accusing them of wanting FCG to die - are currently between blaming themselves and the Changebringer for their closest friend's death.
Make no mistake Ashton is wrong, I think the self-confessed hypocrite with also self-confessed poor morality knows that deep down, or at least knows that they're not the kind of person who should be in charge. Vassalheim is a difficult place for a titan vessel to be in so it is unsure what they will do from here; perhaps investigate the Earth Titan? Commune with the Emperor and Empress? Or maybe be brought to the gods and be able to vent or reconcile with them (and maybe get some closure with FCG, speak with his spirit as like a mediator between the Hells and the Gods)? But it feels like Taliesin is being vocal for a reason, and it's either to invite Matt to challenge it (I've said in other comments but I would love if Ashton found some comfort, not worship or a pact but maybe just a dialogue, in the Everlight: a goddess of healing, temperance and redemption - all of which would help Ashton mentally - as unlikely as it'd be) or find another maybe primordial route to give Ashton a narrative tether towards stopping Predathos.
Let's just, not be cruel about the character, they are more than just their bad trauma and grief-led opinion on gods remember?
#critical role#cr spoilers#c3#c3 spoilers#c3e103#ashton greymoore#taliesin jaffe#I really am hoping that Tal is putting Ashton on a path of at least tolerating the gods - accepting that people need them#their views are very 'but they didn't do anything for me' I agree but that feels like their survival instinct at play#I just don't like that Ashton's views are treated with more vitriol than Dorian and Braius' opinions#Dorian has lost yes and Lolth mocked him for it but Ashton lost too and Dominox targeted them for it#And Braius is fun and silly but that still doesn't mean that Asmodeus won't kill everyone if put in charge#let's not forget how much Ashton cares for their friends too - and that they was the one who suggested anchoring Delilah#I love them all but Ashton Chet and Fearne often suffer in silence because Orym Imogen and Laudna had the big sad that needs attention#even here Essek gave Laudna more catharsis and solutions than Ashton (no hate on Essek it was time to seal Delilah away for sure!)#it frustrates me too because I want to see Ashton grow but growth takes time - they can't just flick a switch and suddenly like the gods#the Hells collectively should spend a few days here to recover - balance themselves and enhance their equipment...and some relationships~#also if the primordials helped seal predathos surely that means that the god eater has the taste for primordial energy too right?
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#lego monkie kid#lego monkie kid fanart#monkie kid#monkie kid fanart#lmk#lmk fanart#lmk mayor#monkie kid mayor#lmk macaque#monkie kid macaque#blue and violet#hershey is literally the goodest girl#and Mayor is a dog person you cannot tell me otherwise- they love dogs and are a dog#and did you guys think Macaque is a cat person?#HAH! no. he is a monkey??? honestly I actually think this guy would have mild beef and issues with felines#probably because of how in the past he probably low-key didn't like Azure Lion#not to say he is against cats soley because of that but its probably a factor somewhat#I think Macaque is the kind of guy who would tolerate cats and dogs and other kinds of pets but like he won't LIKE them y'know?#anyways Hershey is a loaf here and I love it
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Saw the first episode of Chuang Asia S2, and listen, never did I ever think I would get the crossover of Jeff Satur and Minghao in one show!
Secondly, I am watching the show for Minghao and it seems he is basically the assigned baby sitter and ringmaster 🤣
Like, he was bringing everyone back from tangent topics, keeping people on track, he and bam bam were super strict compared to others who were either more lenient or were a bit emotional about the contestants. Even bambam i feel, if given the choice would join the chaos of other mentors and trainees and Minghao is there to exasperatedly (but with lot of fondness) pull everyone together! I am loving this and am looking forward to everyone testing his patience 🤣🤣
#chuang asia s2#i know minghao himself is very chaotic but thats in variety#i feel here especially since he is a mentor and the producer he is being very professional and serious#pretty sure he will join the chaos too but he won't be a menace as he is in variety#also#he has such cute reactions when trainees do well#or when they do unexpected bullshit like the 3 trainees who needed the handheld mike and the last one who said he would sing immediately#but sang off key#minghao looked like a woodland creature not sure how to react and it was hilarious#i am soo looking forward to this#also prediction - he is at some point going to yell at somebody because of skme bullshit they are trying to pull#he is going to be a strict but an amazing mentor but he is someone who will NOT tolerate bullshit or if someone is half assing something#mentor producer minghao - i am so proud of you#chuang s2 ep 1#set your posts free#jeff satur#svt the8#xu minghao
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I love bumblesmoke! I think they’re such cuties and giving bee someone closer to him in maturity lets them both really let loose and have fun. Also bumblebee teasing Smokey once he gets his voice back? Great. 10/10.
My secret ships personally are both TFP Smokeratch and BulkSmoke. I live for pairing up rookie Smokey with some of the older bots and watching as they change each other, with Smokey growing more mature but also loosening up his partner. Smokey with a big crush on bulkhead while bulkhead is still nursing his jealousy is also so gooooddddd 🥺
ikr? they're so cute! not like soft uwu boys, but like... they still call each other bro and hype each other up to others and get these conspiratorial looks on their faces when they kiss in public. it's so sweet!
i don't think i've ever considered smokeratch or bulksmoke, but i can see the appeal. bulksmoke especially, with smokescreen genuinely admiring bulkhead while bulkhead feels threatened that smokescreen's gonna replace him. great angst potential!
#i won't tolerate smokescreen hate here#transformers#smokescreen#bumblebee#ratchet#bulkhead#transformers prime#tfp smokescreen#tfp bumblebee#tfp bulkhead#tfp ratchet#smokebee#smokeratch#bulksmoke#maccadam#answering things
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For a while now Røst has had some recurring issues with hotspots on his lower jaw and unfortunately they got worse while i was away this month. So right now we're doing a bunch of damage control to try and clear them up, which, for a dog that isn't a huge fan of handlig of any kind isn't very fun. And it doesn't help that i can't counter condition because the spots are in the drool zone and he turns sopping wet just at the suggestion of a treat. So all i can do it try to be patient and gentle when he gets anxious about handling, but i also do have to actually get things done, so basically i feel like the world's worst owner right now and Røst isn't exactly my biggest fan :(
#i hate bugging him with things like these#he's soooo sensitive#he only learned to tolerate the hair dryer this year#at the age of 4#he doesn't like being brushed#he's been terrified of clippers but today i sat him down with some quiet ones and went at his jaw with it#which only worked so long as my mum continuously dispensed cream cheese directly into his mouth#i also got a spray for the hot spots that is supposed to work well#and he HATES it#like won't let it near him kind of hates it#so we're having fun over here#i swear i have a small pharmacy worth of stuff piled up to fix this#if he didn't cuddle right up to me in bed despite it all i'd be a mess by now#but he's here <3
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wowwwww more work being done in the building common areas with zero fucking notification from my landlord? everybody pretend to be surprised!
#im so angry. im *so* angry. maybe i'm the freak here but my general understanding is that in these contexts it is not unreasonable#to expect your stupid fucking landlord to drop you a text letting you know when work's getting done. i know they tell her about this#shit. just for some reason she never thinks it pertinent to tell me. & i can't even complain to her because she'll act like i'm the dick in#this situation. and i am dependent on her for housing. she is such a fucking prick & every time i talk to my sisters they're like ohoho it'#just [redacted] being [redacted] you know what she's like & it's like well yeah actually i do. way more than you do‚ though i know that#seems impossible to you! like it's really funny how the ones telling you she is an unreasonable git are the ones who actually had to live#with her. do you think that might perhaps suggest something about the situation at hand?#i think it's because me & my eldest sister both have pretty bad anxiety they feel entitled to dismiss what we say as exaggeration or#misinterpretation. when in fact living with her/putting up with her regularly is what exacerbates the anxiety in the fucking first place#like maybe a better fucking person wouldve realised that staying with my sister for six fucking weeks when she was post partum & nearly#fucking died due to not being listened to at the hospital if you are a person who never listens to people would be perhaps not the best mov#(and the entire rest of the family is on the other side of the country so she has no other real support system!!!!!!!!)#but nooooo she was only trying to help. i don't gaf at this point really i don't. she doesn't care enough to reflect she never has she neve#will. jesus fucking christ#like i *know* what it looks like when my sister gets bad okay? i know. but the key difference there is that she actually did think about#it and change her behaviour. which is why we now enjoy spending time together but neither of us can tolerate our aunt. because she won't#& everyone acts like my sister is soooo unreasonable. man fuck you
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PSA for the neverending influx of spiders: if you want to avoid premature eviction when sharing a flat with me, not dropping from the ceiling hanging suspended at head-height while deciding how to proceed from there twice on a single evening would be a good place to start
#and here i was almost delighted at least today there weren't any midnight spider antics when it happened earlier#because clearly that was enough antics for the day#but no. stroke midnight. the spider dangles from the ceiling AGAIN#i'm sorry buddy but no. i'm not dealing with that. you're going outside#at least the ones that just got lost and then set up camp inside for as long as i tolerate them#are very cooperative when it comes to leaving the premises#yesterday's midnight spider was a tegenaria. which do live inside. just like. not in my kitchen please.#so that one was a pain to get outside#one thing i gotta say is that all of that eight-legged bombardment has done a great deal towards desensitization#at this point it's really just 'you serious?? no. that won't fly.' instead of me slightly dying inside#spider cw#i guess
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I ❤️ HITTING TAG LIMIT. BUT. ALSO. I feel like there's a whole other avenue to explore, when you have an aromantic chara who Isn't Strictly Ace. Like mind how I said Mani is "functionally ace". Regardless of if its internal sense of whatever would line up perfectly w Moe's, who's demisexual -- that doesn't matter. Like I fully don't have a strict answer on that. What I DO have for a strict answer, though, is that Mani has such an unhealthy, trauma-fueled, and just deeply UNCOMFORTABLE relationship to sexuality that it straight up Does Not Matter. Treat it as though it is fully aroace, who would be abstaining on both accounts. Somewhere in here there is a Plumeria comparison -- it's important to acknowledge each goes about navigating the discomfort a bit differently. But. The sheer amount of intense discomfort is There. Enough to where forcing either into such a situation "nice style" (as in, idealizing the scenario and not using it as an avenue for horror) would be antithetical to Who They Are, as characters.
Cut back to Moe, and the opening statement. This is not something I'm gonna be able to capture perfectly, esp off the cuff. HOWEVER. For many reasons, Moe imprints on Alfonse. It is not a simple or straightforward process. But it does happen. The deep emotional bond is made. The Trust is established. Moe has been shockingly meticulous and methodical about it. Shocking, because of how rapidly it happened AND -- it's... A bit easy. To misjudge Moe. As someone who's far too flippant, casual to the point of carelessness, and naive. That isn't to say it lacks these qualities completely. But it is to say Moe contains multitudes, in a most contradictory fashion.
Okay. So give a mouse a cookie, and now we've got a sexual situationship going on in the budding friendship, friendship specifically slowed only by each having their own sets of Issues. Alfonse being Alfonse about it, you know the guy who's all "I find it best, not to get too attached these days... especially to Heroes." and "Promise you'll never leave us. Without warning me, first." and "I advise you not to get close to the Heroes. It will just make it harder... should you ever be parted." and AGGRESSIVELY GESTURES. AT THE ENTIRE 40 CONVO. AND THE ALEAR FBS. OKAY? SAME PAGE? OKAY. And now we got Moe being Moe about it. Guy who SWEARS up and down that you can like someone very much, genuinely, and not get attached to them. Guy who is relieved to leave everything behind and start anew. Guy who has an INFINITE AMOUNT of trust issues and is endlessly stubborn about it. Moe voice "you're not allowed to like me" and "I can Leave Any Time." Moe mentality "but i can like you just fine. You Deserve a Little Pussy, as A Treat. for your troubles. I'm Helping." And, of course, the Loadbearing "this guy is fuckin' awesome. he's not gonna get attached to me at all, i mean he said so himself."
There is. Of course. SO much set up and context. So many trust tests. So much of Moe just Evaluating Him. And so much of Alfonse becoming a neurotic guard dog about it. Extremely calculated. Moe worries for his well-being, makes itself available as a person to confide in. Alfonse has taken note of Moe's Struggles, like that thang is going to DIE if left on its own. Wounds fresh from Catastrophic Bruno Incident. Takes this opportunity to accept Moe's offer, Only if you confide in me, as well. Moe thinks it's got his ass. Alfonse knows he got Moe's ass. Peace and love on planet convoluted Trust Pact where neither party is remotely normal about it.
Okay. Looping all the way back to the opening statement, again. Aromantic character, who experiences some level of sexual attraction and desire for sex. All our ducks in a row, all the planets perfectly aligned...
This has. Fascinating effects. On the Moefonse dynamic. Moe likes Alfonse a lot. Is extremely fond of him. Moe would describe him as, "being very likeable". There isn't any romantic intent behind those words -- in fact, Moe makes it very clear, it resents the notion. Moe and Alfonse's relationship can only exist as it does at this point in time, because neither are "ready" to "be in a relationship". What Moe doesn't exactly realize yet, however, is that "ready" never comes to be. Alfonse is capable of romantic attraction, just has an odd way of going about it. He, on paper, could feasibly be "ready" one day. Moe never will. But this isn't exactly doomed -- it's not a story of starcrossed lovers. It's a story of being in love with your best friend, and loving your best friend dearly. Alfonse's goal will eventually become, learning to love Moe exactly where it's at. Hell, this can even go for Mani, too! Only the "Where it (Mani) is at" is very different, than where Moe is. That's focal. It defines the entire relationship (neutral phrase/title, here). Maybe, for Mani, the story is loving at a distance, and learning to be loved in a way that doesn't hurt, that isn't scary (OW! OUCH! OOOWWWW!!!!!!!!!).
I keep getting bogged down in the details, though. Sex, for Moe, is... An offering. It has determined, after much careful consideration, that Alfonse can be Trusted with its body. That he's worthy of it. That he deserves it. These words, feel like obligation, but trust -- Moe wouldn't be doing this if it weren't extremely fond of the guy. It has A LOT. Of odd, intense feelings about him it can't quite place, on top of that -- which surely will not come back to bite it in the ass come Book 3 and 4. Surely.
Meanwhile. What gets REALLY fucking fascinating, actually. Is how, Alfonse does allow all this to happen. He is giving that mouse a cookie. Ofc has his hot and cold moments about it. But something that GOT ME. THINKING ABOUT THIS. DEVELOPING THIS. Is how Alfonse is using this offering, and sex itself, as A Tool. Don't get me wrong, he genuinely likes Moe a lot too (just don't tell it that. Yet.), he wouldn't be allowing this to occur in the first place, if he didn't. He's very fond of Moe, and treads VERY carefully. Especially after he learns how calculated Moe has been, too. Complete perspective shift, needs a new approach, and... Yeah remember how Moe is stubborn? Endlessly? And how even WITH the Trust Pact, Alfonse is often fighting for his life to wrangle Moe into accepting ANY fucking help????? When it is DIRELY NEEDED?????
LIKE if I were to make a canon comparison. He handles Moe Exactly how he would come to handle Ratatoskr. VASTLY different circumstances, dynamics, and flavor of what bond would be developed, here. The opening of Book 8 and the insane Alfonse and Ratatoskr conspiring under the Order's nose and almost getting himself killed for it moment. Normal Alfonse Things. But the way he takes in all of the information Girl Assigned To Assassinate Him (And Is A Bit Hesitant To) gives him, through what she says directly, and what she reveals through her emotional state (sobbing wet creature), AND what she doesn't even INTEND to fully tell him, the context just slips through. In BOTH scenarios, after diffusing the threat (bc make no mistake! And he didn't either! Behind those tears, IS someone with the knowledge and skills to kill him.) by winning her over, getting her on HIS side. And the Normal Alfonse Moments Incident. In Both Cases, he is using Ratatoskr to achieve his own ends, here. And Ratatoskr, stuck between a rock and a hard place, but given exactly what she fucking Needed and was denied by her previous situation, The Choice. Him, respecting her agency and autonomy and just trusting the rest. She willingly offers herself, to help.
Like. Back to Moe. Back to Alfonse, with Moe. Like with Ratatoskr, there is a level of diffusing a looming threat. Except instead of his own life, it's Moe's safety. And after his previous homoerotic bestfriendship ended w his bestie trying to goad Alfonse into Killing Him, like, suicide at the hands of your bestie, and the implications that Bruno has made SEVERAL attempts before turning to the false identity suicide plot. That's, ah....... maybe a sensitive subject. For Alfonse. The idea, that Moe could be a danger to itself.
And beyond that! It's a matter of slowly but surely winning Moe over. Getting Moe to actually... be vulnerable, with him. It likes him a lot, that much is clear. He already has one foot in the door. But Moe is Moe about it. Will take some time.
So, fellas. What's the solution, here? Well. Clearly. Gay sex. Sex as an offering, and sex as a tool. Both UNBELIEVABLY calculated about it, believe it or not with all braincells just being thrown out the window, also. Because, that's the key, too. Despite how hard each of them fights it -- they both do, really, really like each other. They just enjoy each other's company. SO much. Devastatingly fond of each other. They're... Friends 🥺🥲💕
(... What does this make Mani? Whole other Beast. What does this make Lif? Epic Divorce Man. Easy.)
#moe lore#moe tag#mani tag#my notes#SO RAMBLY. BUT. MMY VISIONS........#NOT EVEN FROM MY NOTES APP. JUST. COMPLETELY OFF THE CUFF#i don't think about moe for a little too long and it fucking Gets Me.#i still feel like there is so much context missing here. like idk if it comes through. but.#i think what always takes me out at like the most unexpected moments. is how moe is just...#intensely self-loathing. the self worth. is a constant point of contention. a constant struggle for moe.#even after all that growth. liking itself after transition. KNOWING its worth ironically enough#at very least to have high standards in how it should be treated and tolerating absolutely no less.#like damn. the entire life it's led up until this point in so many stages. has hands.#i won't even fully get into it. if you know you know LMFAO. but if you don't. just Know#there is an entire lifetime of Issues in this bad boy. in SO MANY WAYS#oh poor thang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#like maybe an additional thought is how#when you have self-loathing characters. i feel like what you see most is the most intense versions of it.#alcyrst. lapis. sumia. bernadetta. felicia. just to name a few fe charas off the top of my head!#takumi strikes a more subtle balance w his inferiority complex. it's still p overt but i do love all that about him#and i like all the charas i listed!!! it's just. REALLY noticable how different they feel to moe (takumi maybe being closest)#moe AND mani Both. are compensating for Something.
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it's amazing how almost all of my friendships (and by almost all i mean Every save like three) are ruined by my own self essentially swerving into a wall and crashing on purpose due to my inability to believe my company could ever be even slightly desirable to anyone and i'd rather just burn it all and die than see myself as someone who intrudes and abuses people's kindness out of my own selfish desire to want companionship.
#i was going to post something similar the other night but i fell asleep instead#but i was thinking about how truly all cases for me boil down to#>i talk with someone and we have a great time >they express a level of joy in interaction >i get weirdly attached too quickly#>i am comfortable enough to openly be myself which inevitably ends on a weird interaction >i talk too much and am too clingy#>i convince myself that that was actually awful and annoying and not something anybody wanted to hear#>i decide to leave and never be seen again because i don't want to be hated more than i already am in my head#>i am miserable because i really wanted to keep talking to that person#i just had a random two day-long chat with someone who messaged me and we had a good time talking about chainsaw man#and it truly took not much time for me to start going off about other shit until i noticed replies got so much shorter and alienated#and i just stopped altogether. because yeah man you're not here for this and you're probably too polite to tell me to go fuck myself so#i'll just do it for you.#and I KNOW that that's a me problem.#I KNOW that that's my own brain convincing itself that i am worse than i actually am in the eyes of others#and i am AWARE of how unfair that is to anyone else. it speaks to a clear lack of trust that is also my fault#but there's also a reality that i'm just. Not someone that people are particularly Excited to talk to#and i feel like i've wanted nothing more than that ever since i lost it when i was 15 years old#i am Tolerable at usual and a Cartoon Clown at best. and none of those serve as particularly deep connections.#and i know that that's once again a me problem. and i shouldn't ever place that expectation on anyone. that is not fair. and i try not to.#but like. is it bad for me to want that to begin with?#should i just abandon the idea altogether and accept that yeah i am just destined to be a crazy hermit murmuring ramblings by themselves#is that the Morally correct thing to do? to just be alone? that's for sure what it feels like to me#that yeah that's what my life is always going to be. no joy in connection or sharing. just an endless stream of thoughts by myself.#that way at least my life won't get in the way of anyone else's lives.#and like. i am always hoping that someone would make a deliberate attempt to reach out to me even if i'm hell bent on isolating myself.#because that would be a proof that someone cares enough you know? that I Am an active choice that someone makes.#but that never comes. and that's not something that would be fair for me to expect or ask for either. would it?#might as well hope for a unicorn while i'm at it.
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fighting the autism final boss right now, i swear
#there's a group of 7 kids at my library right now (all siblings/cousins) and they are. SO LOUD.#i can't even tell them to be quiet either because half of them are toddlers and won't listen#oh also this is my 6th day of work in a row and i have been here for 9 hours now and still have 1 hour left#technically i did clock out for 2 hours to attend my zoom class but like. i was still here.#not to mention i'm like 4 days away from getting my period so i have 0 tolerance for bullshit#i don't CARE that i'm providing a service it's 8pm these kids should be IN BED
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If you love a fictional character so much it causes you to hurl abuse at the real people behind it the second they don't cater to your vision of said character then you don't really love the character. You love what the character gives you, something you need, something you lack and for reasons of your own can only get from them so when the reality of the character and the creative processes behind them doesn't suit you it becomes personal on a visceral level that makes you see red and forego all reason. And that's not on the people behind the character, that's not on the character itself. That is on you. That is all you, it's your issues hiding behind fiction, translating into bitter hate for real living humans you now wish death upon.
Because they didn't give you what you were expecting to get. From a fictional character in a fictional world. When you reach that point you should really really get some help of the professional variety, seriously.
Hate is a waste of precious time and energy nobody will ever give you back. If you want to hate someone hate the IOF, hate Netanyahu, hate Zionists and Nazis, hate Trump, hate Musk. They absolutely 150% deserve it. But a singular guy from a team that you're holding sole responsible for ruining your personal experience of a videogame because of a joke you decided to blow out entirely out of proportion and take as fact to have an excuse to hurl abuse at them online?? Get the fuck out.
#just ran into someone here who has a tag dedicated to hating on a specific DA dev#i was going to reply to them first#but its pointless once they reach that level of hate theyre pretty much gone and won't see reason#fandom#dragon age#zero tolerance for dev abuse#those people gave their ALL under awful circumstances and delivered a GOOD GAME#I'm angry now
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I’m just glad she didn’t delete her TikTok account because people say it on there to
catch me on her account shooting for her in the comments then cause I will defend her w my life 🙏
#If any of u are being harassed just tag me in I'd LOVE to speak my mind#This is a safe space and I won't tolerate it here nor will I let my friends take it#So PUT ME IN COACH#Ask
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Sometimes I wonder if I'm being annoying (in a bad way) to my moots and I kinda hope y'all tell me if I step on any lines or boundaries or anything. It might be anxiety or something (and given how often I think that to the point of it coloring all my interactions... maybe it is that? idk enough about anxiety the disorder so who knows) but I do like to assure that I mean well and can be a little awkward/stupid sometimes. Often. A lot, actually. But I am trying my best.
#unma rambles#also like this is why I tell everyone who dms me or even say in my intro post not to worry about how you come off to me#I'm very tolerant and often see the best in people so I genuinely don't mind a few mistakes here or there#honestly 100% of the time I'm far too worried about coming off wrong to be concerned about any social faux-pas you may commit#but I'll probably tell you myself if you go too far (and I won't hold it against you unless you're being mean on purpose or something)
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